Sunday, April 28, 2024

Intent and Joy (Talk I Gave Last Sunday)

        Here's the base of my talk I gave last week in church. My typical process is writing it all out (which is pretty much what you have below), but then practice it a couple times out-loud to myself so I can 1. make sure the time is good and 2. get it all in my head. 

        With it in my head, I can use what I have written more as bullet points rather than reading exactly what I have. This helps me flow more naturally, look at people while I'm talking, and be better prepared to follow the Spirit to make adjustments/say specific things/reword things etc. So what's written below is definitely not exactly what I said during my talk last week. I added a couple sections using asterisks where that especially took place, but obviously minor adjustments were all over the place since I barely read directly off what I had written down.

Anyway, here's my talk I've titled Intent and Joy:

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        Hello Brothers and Sisters! My name is Alex Perazzo. I’m home for the semester from BYU Idaho, just got back last Saturday. 

*Expanded on my life: Major, minor, graduation in a year etc.* 

        My topic at hand today is Honoring and Keeping Covenants. I kind of go back and forth on if I actually like introducing my topic first thing. On one hand, I don't want to have anything get in the way of having people hear what they need to hear -- I want you to be able to distill and learn what you need to learn, and I feel a given topic might make people feel like they can only learn about that one thing, which isn't true. On the other had, (which is why I chose it in this case), it can give a nice structure and context for various parts of the talk. 

        Anyway, I hope my seemingly random stories and such take more shape and provide more understanding because you understand the overall topic is Honoring and Keeping Covenants. I pray that the Spirit will aid me in this as well and that the Spirit may help you take away something that will help you look at life more brightly and become a better, more confident person.

         As I’ve been contemplating and writing what I want to speak today, I’ve notice two general subsections that I want to focus on in regards to this topic. #1 How to best Honor and Keep our Covenants through Our Intent being in the right place, and #2 Joy in our Covenants.

Subsection 1: Intent

        Intent is an incredibly important part in keeping our covenants. In following the commandments. In everything we do.

        Moroni in Moroni chapter 7 quotes his father, Mormon, who spoke about the importance of having real intent. As a side note before I read those verses, the chapters in the Book of Moroni are so powerful to me. In Moroni 1 Moroni says, “I write a few more things, contrary to that which I had supposed. I had supposed not to have written more, but I have not as yet perished;” Moroni thought he was done, that he would have died by now. But since he hadn’t, he wrote some of the most precious chapters the Book of Mormon contains. Imagining the Book of Mormon without the Book of Moroni, without Moroni's promise, as Moroni thought it was going to be, is just a wild thought. The Book of Moroni is wonderful.

        Anyway, that aside, back to Mormon talking about real intent. He says in verses 6-8 of chapter 7, 

6 For behold, God hath said a man being evil cannot do that which is good; for if he offereth a gift, or prayeth unto God, except he shall do it with real intent it profiteth him nothing.
7 For behold, it is not counted unto him for righteousness.
8 For behold, if a man being evil giveth a gift, he doeth it grudgingly; wherefore it is counted unto him the same as if he had retained the gift; wherefore he is counted evil before God.

        I feel like I learned that principle many many semester ago when a female friend of mine asked me to give her a priesthood blessing. At the time, I kind of liked her, so my inner desire was to give a great blessing and she would be impressed with my spirituality or something or the other and like me more, if that makes sense. 

        I think it was the first blessing of comfort I’ve given where I did not have the spirit strongly with me after the blessing. I’m sure the blessing was helpful nonetheless, God isn’t going to not bless his daughter because I had the wrong intent in my heart – she told me a few times after that various parts of the blessing helped her, but to me something was off. I thought and prayed a lot about it, and I realized that my intent was off. That I was focusing on the wrong things. That when I’m exercising the Priesthood, when I’m serving, it needs to be for them.

        Likewise, we need to strive to keep our covenants not for the recognition from others or for any other selfish reason. We best honor our covenants when we keep our covenants because we love God.

        I want to make sure to focus on the other side of this principle. Right now I feel like I’m focusing on the side that may give the impression that we’re all doing worse than we think we are with the idea that “if you think you’re doing good, you might not be if that good is not with the right intent”. I feel what I’ve talked about could be discouraging if we view it from that light. 

        Of course I want what I say to push us all to be better, and part of that is recognizing where we’re going wrong, but obviously discouragement is not going to help us do that. So now I want to focus more on the other side so I hopefully hit the proper balance between not too much on one side lest discouragement happens but not too much on the other side lest complacency happens. 

        We are all doing much better than I think we think. And I think this principle of making sure our intent is in the right place is actually a big reason why that is. I feel there are many times and situations throughout life where we feel we may come up short. We get busy and we drop the ball on a commitment. We have such a long day that we’re short-fused with a loved one. We fail on keeping our goals yet again. Over and over again we may feel like we’re falling short. 

        But if you are actively trying to become better, that is what matters most. 

        We see this in the newest version of the temple recommend questions, which frequently uses the word “strive”. “Do you strive for moral cleanliness in your thoughts and behavior?” “Do you strive to keep the Sabbath day holy?” “Do you strive to be honest in all that you do?”

        Even if we feel we may come up short, if we truly strive to become like Christ, He will work in our lives and everything is going to be much better than you can imagine.

        President Nelson said, “The Lord loves effort, and effort brings rewards. We keep practicing. We are always progressing as long as we are striving to follow the Lord. He doesn’t expect perfection today. As in times past, our journey does indeed take effort, hard work, and study, but our commitment to progress brings eternal rewards.”

Subsection 2: Joy

        Thinking about joy, I wanted to share a story from school this past semester. I hope someone else can find this seemingly insignificant moment as insightful as I have. Even though it’s just a funny passing moment, I’ve reflected on it several times the past, so I wanted to share it.

        A little bit of background first: My roommates got me into Trading Card Games this past semester. You might recognize Pokemon or Magic: The Gathering, which are more common place trading card games, but Lorcana, the Disney Trading Card Game, is the one I’ve played the most of. 

        I actually definitely don’t recommend getting into trading card games as they are definitely a money hole. I spent way more money on cardboard than I care to admit in the past few months. But a really neat thing about trading cards is they have inherent value – you can sell them online to people. When you open up a Legendary Ursula card, you can list it online and someone will actually buy it from you for $30. 

        After opening up 50+, 75+ packs (much more in my roommates's case), we have gotten extremely desensitized. We open a pack and if it doesn’t contain a 5, 10, 20, 30, 40 dollar card, then the pack is trash and we set it aside barely looking at its contents. Next pack: Trash again. Next pack: Trash again. 

        At one of these tournaments, I got to watch this lady, we’ll call her Selina because that’s her name, open up a pack, and it was just a heartwarming joyous sight. Every card in that pack is a treasure and an excitement. Every pack, no matter how good or bad money wise, she loved and had so much fun opening up. 

        One pack in particular I remember: My roommates and I saw her open up a (at the time) $45 Robin Hood card. We’re popping off for her. But to her, it’s just another card. “Ooo, I like Robin Hood, neat!”

        The next card: a 75-cent foil Dalmatian Puppy. She gets so excited. Talking about how she’s been looking for more Dalmatian Puppy cards and how the foil looks so good.

        And I just feel like there’s a really good lesson in there. It’s important we try to find joy in the little things. I think it’s important we try to find joy throughout our lives. Keeping covenants, keeping commandments may seem to get routine at times. But finding joy in the little things is important.

*Expanded more on that topic of finding joy. I also expanded a lot into how I know life is hard that life hasn't been easy for me recently. But how I know that we were sent to earth to experience things and how they'll be consecrated for our gain. How I know that everything is going to be great:)*


        I want to end by sharing a quote from Elder Eyring back in October of 2019. It comes from his talk Holiness and the Plan of Happiness where he talks about how increased holiness and purity leads to increased happiness.

        He said, “[Alma] taught his son that increasing in holiness was the only path to happiness. He made it plain that greater holiness is made possible through the Atonement of Jesus Christ cleansing and perfecting us. Only by faith in Jesus Christ, continuing repentance, and keeping covenants are we able to claim the lasting happiness we all yearn to experience and retain.”

*Bore my testimony on various things including stuff revolved around the ideas I have below*

        For me, at least, I know I feel more peace and joy when I know my will aligns with a being who truly knows what is best for me, who knows what will make me most happy now and in the eternities. I trust him to know what is best for me, so I can feel peace when I’m doing what he would have me do.

        I bare witness of these things in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

Sunday, April 21, 2024

Win-cons in Board Games

So I've run into this weird thing recently. I've played several games of both Ark Nova and Terraforming Mars this past week, which are games that are often compared to one another. I love both, and I can comfortably say both are in my top 10 favorite board games of all time. Yes, I need to get around to updating my list, but that is a constant need. (Most recent publicized version can be found here)


An interesting difference between the two is their win conditions. Ark Nova's end triggers once one player's score gets high enough (slightly simplified, but that's the base idea). Terraforming Mars end triggers once all the global parameters are complete. 

The important difference between the two is it being an individual vs a group thing. Ark Nova ends once one person, completely separate from everyone else, does something (it's effectively a race). Terraforming Mars ends once we've all collectively finished terraforming Mars.


I've discovered that I'm not a fan of race win-cons.

I think the main reason that drives this is because it makes me feel bad for winning. I am prematurely cutting off other people's wonderful thing they have going on, and if I hadn't been there, they would still be having fun building up their stuff.

I've seen this happen several times in Viticulture as well. I play with a new player or something, and I win so quickly that they were just getting things up and running -- they were just about to see the fruits of this engine they've been building up and I cut them off, and I don't like how that makes me feel. It makes me feel that if I had not been playing, they would have had more fun.

Especially in a game like Ark Nova, which is so solitaire with little to no interaction, ending the game when other people are just seeing success is not a feels-good moment.

Perhaps in closer games, the race win-con is more fun than the normal "end-after-n-rounds" etc., but idk. When it's not close, it just feels bad. I don't want to feel bad for playing my best.

Sunday, April 14, 2024

My Favorite Moment Playing Secret Hitler

Thomas brings this story up pretty consistently whenever we talk about Secret Hitler. It's pretty incredible and frankly hilarious, so even though it's kind of embarrassing, I feel like it needs to be immortalized in a journal of some form, hence the blog post.


Background on the game Secret Hitler (in case you know little to nothing about it (I'll keep it to only the barebones of what you need to understand the story)):

It's a social deduction game where a couple-few people are fascists and most of the people are liberal. Each round a president and chancellor get voted in. The president looks at 3 cards. Each card is either a fascist card or a liberal card. He gives 2 of the cards to the chancellor. The chancellor picks one of the two cards to enter play. The fascists' goal is to get fascist cards out in play and the liberals' goal is to get liberal cards in play.


The Story Part One:

One night between the months of January and April of 2022 we get together and play Secret Hitler with our FHE family. After some super fun games, Thomas (who was my room roommate at the time) and I are chatting about the various games and things. He brings up a potential strategy you could implement in Secret Hitler. 


The Theorized Strat:

You are fascist. You hand a liberal 2 fascist policies. After they put down a fascist, you claim you gave them a choice. Of course, you have your initial squabble of not trusting each other, but after a while you slowly start trusting them some. You say that you believe them and they most have simply accidentally not realized there was a choice. You gaslight them so hard that they too believe they actually had a choice and they just didn't realize it.


The Story Part Two:

The very next night we sit down to play Secret Hitler again with our FHE sisters. Thomas is fascist. I am liberal. He gives me two fascist policies. I put down a fascist. He claims I had a choice. You probably see where this story is going.

Thomas lies so well and gaslights me so hard that I eventually believe that he's liberal and that I must have just accidentally put down a fascist card. The fact that we had talked about the strategy the night before made it all the more believable that he wouldn't be doing it to me, and all the more sweet for Thomas as he deceives me like I've never been deceived before.

I am happy to say that the Liberals won that game regardless. But boy oh boy was it hilarious and embarrassing  as Thomas revealed that he fascist the whole time. Definitely my favorite Secret Hitler moment of all time even though I'm the one who got deceived -- winning even still does take away some of the sting for sure, though, haha.

Sunday, April 7, 2024

Goal Report on the First Quarter of 2024

So I thought I would return and report on how all my goals and plans are going.


Goal 1: Reading

List of all the stuff I've read:

January:

Start Words of Radiance by Brandon Sanderson

ReDawn by Brandon Sanderson

Evershore by Brandon Sanderson

        Start Defiant by Brandon Sanderson

February:

Finish Words of Radiance by Brandon Sanderson

Continue Defiant by Brandon Sanderson

        Start Boundaries by Cloud & Townsend

March:

        Start Ella Minnow Pea by Mark Dunn

        Listen to Edgedancer by Brandon Sanderson

        Listen to Warbreaker by Brandon Sanderson


So I'm doing pretty well in this category. Got ahead in February as I was originally planning on just continuing Words of Radiance in February and then finishing it in March, but I ended up just finishing it all in February. I slowed down quite a bit in the middle of March, but the last week or so in March (spilling a little into April) I did some good catching up. We're looking good. Got a lot more reading/listening ahead of me, and I'm excited.


Goal 2: Basic Work-Out Routine

I have not been doing so well in this goal. There was a solid two weeks I think where I was consistently doing my few minutes of push-ups/sit-ups every day except Sunday, but then I forgot one day and quickly fell out of the habit.


Goal 3: Bi-Weekly Reevaluations

I've been doing a good job of this in terms of figuring out where I am in my reading goal, but not so much in other goals. I also want this to be a time where I can set smaller term goals depending on the various things going on in my life at that time, which I've done a little, but not too much. So: Not awful, but definitely want to expand what I do during my reevaluations. 


Goal 4: Reaching Out to People

I've been doing quite alright on this one I would say, but it's been more naturally than purposefully. Which I guess is just simply a good thing? I feel like I've been doing a good job at staying connected with various people and such. I do want to send more texts to random people I haven't seen since High School and such, but overall I feel good about what I've done so far.


Goal 5: Weekly Blog Posts

Doing super good:)


Goal 6: 2024 Campaign Related Goals

No progress, although I have plans of when I'll make progress, though, which is an important step.